I know I should feel lucky to be surrounded by so many friends and family who love me so much. But it seems I just get angry with them instead. They are so well-intended. But all I want is The Guy to come back. And they don't seem to get it. They want me to get mad at him and call him names with them. I'm not ready. I still love him. He's done a rotten thing in deciding to leave me, but I'm not mad, just crushed. I know my friends just want me to stop hurting. But isn't it okay to hurt while I work through this crap? I feel like they just want me to be over it already. And I'm not even close.
The count: 4 weeks since breakup, 2 weeks since last communication.
I do get you. *checks calendar* I was dumped about one month and 20 days ago. And the last time I cried my heart out? Last night. That was the first time I did that in about 2,3 weeks and I thought I was getting stronger -.-
ReplyDeleteMy friends think I'm supposed to be over it, other than one friend. She gets it that some days I hate him or I'm mad at him or I miss him so much or that I just want to beg him for another chance. And today? I regret meeting him.
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Its normal to be hurting. I'm still hurting but I try to just go "meh" on it. And sometimes, I think I'm lucky for being dumped because I can see that it was actually crappy. Anyway, talking about it to people who understands and who wants to listen will help.