Lucky?

I know I should feel lucky to be surrounded by so many friends and family who love me so much.  But it seems I just get angry with them instead.  They are so well-intended.  But all I want is The Guy to come back.  And they don't seem to get it.  They want me to get mad at him and call him names with them.  I'm not ready.  I still love him.  He's done a rotten thing in deciding to leave me, but I'm not mad, just crushed.  I know my friends just want me to stop hurting.  But isn't it okay to hurt while I work through this crap?  I feel like they just want me to be over it already.  And I'm not even close.

The count: 4 weeks since breakup, 2 weeks since last communication.

Dumped

A month ago today, this Birdie got dumped.

Today, I'm looking for a sense of understanding, peace, comfort.

I know that although it feels like I'm the only one in this world to ever feel this devastated, in reality there are lots of people going through this right now with me.  And I also know there are much worse things in this world than getting dumped, but that doesn't make it hurt less for me.

My goal is that this will become a place to vent, speak freely, lament, inspire, support, and more.  I want to put it all out there, the intense and raw emotions, the disappointment, the honest grief.  I want this to be a place to work through the pain and confusion that comes with a long-term relationship ending suddenly. Not just for me, but for anyone going through it, or who has been through it.

Maybe we can all help each other.